For Noela

Noelas 1st pic

I wrote this when I was about 5 months pregnant with Noela, and had forgotten about it until I found it again going through some old things.

To My Baby Girl

Noela newborn Hi Baby,

I am your mommy. You can't see me, but you can hear me. You can also feel my warmth and love coming to you in the way I carry you in my belly.

I know you already. You are growing slowly month by month. I know this by the ultrasound pictures my doctor has taken and given to me. I show you off proudly, my darling little girl; even though many can't tell what is you and what is me.

There are other special ways you have touched mommy's heart, like the way you kick me and roll around in my belly reminding me you are there and ok. I cannot describe the love I feel for you already and this special bond I thought to never feel.

We have shared a few scarey moments together that you, my angel, aren't aware of. I am reminded daily of how much I love you and what you are bringing into my life.

These nine months I carry you, it's just you and me. At first I wasn't sure that daddy was going to be there, but he soon aleviated my fears. Yet even now with daddy close, our bond is strong and I feel your all mine.

Noela newborn2 I wonder if you hear my prayers for your healthy beginning. The soft songs I sing to calm us both during a restless night or another scarey moment. I wonder if you know how much you have already become so much of my life and the changes I've began adjusting to; with still more to come.

I wait for the day the lord chooses to send you to me so I may hold you close and give you the hugs and kisses I've only given you in my dreams.

Baby, you're in my thoughts throughout the day, and share my dreams when I close my eyes at the end of another day.

The day will come when the lord will put you in my arms, and until that day comes my arms can wait patiently while my heart grows with love for you.

For my unborn child, a little girl I'm told. From your mommy,


Noela sleeping on couch

A friend sent me this and it defines exactly how I have felt about Noela from the beginning.

A Mother's Heart

I loved you from the very start,

You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

Our life together has just begun,

You're part of me my little one.

As mother with child, each day I grew,

My mind was filled with thoughts of you.

I'd daydream of the things we'd share,

Like late-night bottles and teddy bears.

Like first steps and skinned knees,

Like bedtime stories and ABCs.

I thought of things you'd want to know,

Like how birds fly and flowers grow.

I thought of lessons I'd need to share,

Like standing tall and playing fair.

When I first saw your precious face,

I prayed your life be touched with grace.

I thanked the angels from above,

And promised you unending love.

Each night I lay you down to sleep,

I gently kiss your head and cheek.

I count your little fingers and toes,

I memorize your eyes and nose.

I linger at your nursery door,

Awed each day I love you more.

Through misty eyes, I dim the light,

I whisper "I love you" every night.

I loved you from the very start,

You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

As mother and child our journey's begun,

My heart's yours forever my little one.

Author Unknown

Noela stretching on bed